Everything.

Today is one of those days where stuff gets done on autopilot and there's finally a harsh chill in the air that says.. yet again.. an Indiana winter is fast approaching. There might be a little romance left in fall but I doubt it. I don't think its a secret to many people that if I were honest, I'd be anywhere but here. And by here I mean activity and location in life. I find myself thinking ahead rather than what's going on at the moment. Although the more I think about it, I'm realizing how utterly selfish that is. Yet today is my little sister's eleventh birthday. She is the kind of 'baby of the family' in the way of looking out for us older ones. As well as sometimes being more mature and grow up. But I remember when I turned eleven. Not ten, not twelve. Only remember the eleventh year for some reason. The main thing I remember was feeling very 'the weight of all my years is upon me!' oh throw thy hand across thy brow for thee is of very olden years...!
And how quickly the years pass. Right now I am on my sixth day of recovering from an eye infection. Even though I can't put anything like a contact or eyeliner pencil near them, I still am so happy because I can do life things that involve more than a darkroom ambiance. It was really difficult. I took an average of 15 naps a day and listened to t.v shows. But I am so thankful for eyesight now! And being able to look at this computer screen full on without my eyes utterly failing me.

I'm engaged!

That felt funny to even write. (j/k by the way) Everyone is getting married... I guess it happens.
And I found a new library today. 42nd and college. I'm very excited and am typing within its hallowed walls at this moment. To be able to marry books...but no. I'll hold out for flesh and blood.

Blond moment

For example, I've never really had to deal with peep holes before. But today, I was alone in the apartment and with the ensuing knock, I checked to see my visitor through this hole. Immediately ducking, I crawled carefully to the other room. Side note: if it was the boogie man, the door wasn't even locked. After a time of silence, I again crawled to noiselessly turn the bolt and deadlock the door. More knocks, and I hear.. "maintenance!" I then opened the door (with the deadlock still intact) and told him to come back another day.
Shockingly, I learned the other person cannot see you peep at them. Which I guess is the point of the peep hole. I even double checked on the outside, and couldn't see a thing. Sad I know.

No more coffee...

at least from a certain corporation.

While you're online, google "starbucks and leaving the tap running". There's a lot that comes up. Has anyone heard of this/knew of this before now?? I don't look behind their counters, but it's kind of surprising this would only now come to light. I asked a friend who had worked at Starbucks if they really keep water running constantly, and she said they did, but it was recycled water. I'm thinking about boycotting forever, plus the fact that they boast of being environmentally aware. Finding some smaller business to support would be great.

Ugg, it's a beautiful fall monday and I have a long procrastinated paper hanging over me. Like the sword with the thread... what was that fable anyway? Many questions need answers, like do I really want to write (as a major)? If I like writing enough to do it seriously, then why isn't this paper a breeze? Yes, this is truly a college student's broken record.

Some updates: I'm not going to Ireland. I probably would have been able to with more time and planning, but after crunching numbers with red ink and tears, it's not going to work this time. Hopefully it will still be there in a couple years.
I'll also have a new address for the next couple of months. I'm moving out with 3 other girlies and it will probably be a bit tight (2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom) but FUN.
Anyone want some pumpkin bread? I have the best recipe and I will make some for you.

a heart attack

got too many questions
and not enough words

got too many books
and not enough time...

someday.

got too many ambitions
and not enough spunk

got too many places to go
and not enough gas...

someday i will.

got too many pieces to learn
and not enough patience

got too many people to see
miles to run
recipes to try
homeless to relieve
gardens to create
lists to finish
lessons to learn


STOP!

I will.. someday.


Don't work tomorrow... going to a PU football game in Lafeyette!!