Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Words, only words

I feel sad again.  And this is a for-no-good-reason sad.  You know how girls sometimes answer 'i don't know' to a why question? When you know you really like/don't like something, or feel a certain way, but can't put a concrete reason behind it?  My cousin Adam's illustration on how guys view that answer kinda made me look at this response a different way.  He said it's equivilant to someone asking you where you live, and you say 'i don't know.'  But now I'm just being mean to my own sex.   

Have you ever turned an offer down, when it would have been the perfect time, just because you had to go to the bathroom? That happened to me just today actually.  I went to apply to the Italian restaurant Bravos, and I was able to get pretty far in the application process.  I was asked if I could stay 10 minutes longer to wait and talk to another manager.   However, the only reason I asked if I could schedule an interview the next day was that I had to get out of there and pee.  I haven't had to go that bad since I was... really young.   And  I definitely couldn't have excused myself right then; I'm trying to make a good impression.  They can't know that I have the same bodily function as the rest of those six billion humans.  

and the crickets go on singing their evening melody, and the grass gives off its wet summery smell.  light glows from neighboring windows, and i believe there are people inside.   
and it's hard to tell right now, but tomorrow (most likely) the earth will spin as such that our side of the earth will encounter the sun's light.   it will be a new 'day', as genesis first relayed. Not one that we had before and will never have again... in all exactness.  Something to look forward to.  

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Flying high with occasional thuds

I love the fact that the world is so big, there is so much to do, so much to see and be and create, ways to be challenged and things to look forward to.   There is so much sometimes that instead of racing out and trying to devour it all I poke my head out of my shell- decide it's all much to daunting- and hide.  
But I don't want to hide anymore, I don't want to be afraid.   In Colorado I almost felt like a different person, one that could do pretty much anything.  Yet Summit was a bubble, an amazing bubble, and now that I'm in the world again I'm a little girl.   Right now I'm looking for a job, and if anyone knows of someone looking... let me know!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Lists are great

My book wish list from this summer:

  • The Gift of Fire
  • War against the weak
  • A Severe Mercy
  • Slave Trade
  • Angola, By the Back Door
  • The Brothers
  • Crime and Punishment
  • East of Eden
  • My Sister's Keep
  • Never Eat Alone
  • The Mastery of Sex
  • How Should We Then Live?
  • Persuasion
  • Phantom Tollbooth
I have many other lists as well.   Better get started...

Question to ask yourself:  What would you do for God if you knew you could not fail?