I can't seem to get over several rude comments made tonight at work. They weren't said to me, but from one coworker to another. I feel like I've developed a thicker skin from some of the things that go on, but I very much wanted to hate this person. I didn't say anything in the other persons defense... maybe I should have.

yuck

sad

so, i'm typing this chicken peck style because i'm holding one depressed little puppy with my other arm. neo has gotten increasingly sadder because i think he believes all his boys have left him. my friend megan, who has hung out with me while everyone's been gone couldn't find him for 10 minutes when i was at work. she said she found him under the desk in a corner. and i can't tell him they will be back. i'm not very involved in his dog world, so it's of no comfort that i'm here :) now that i really think about it, it's an interesting thought about how animals are mute. i wonder if they could talk, or communicate somehow, before the curse. now my arm is falling asleep.

Poem I forgot how many

Knees

Glint of a ray
Shines on my peachy surface,
Curvy almost
Boney.
Never lonely.
One and Two
I forgot
in the shower.

wanting some eternal perspective

I pulled out an old Rich Mullins CD this morning; that man was close to the throne.

Now, People say maybe things will get better
People say maybe it won't be long
And people say maybe you'll wake up tomorrow
And it'll all be gone
Well I only know that maybes just ain't enough
When you need something to hold on
There's only one thing that's clear

I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't nothing to be afraid of
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
That ain't no reason to fear
I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
Reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there

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"And it's a great day to be alive, I know the sun's still shining when I close my eyes."

In an email, a friend of mine wrote, "i do know worrying now is disobedience, takes away my strength, and denies God´s ability to do something incredible." I don't want life to be a flat road of struggle, of complacency, to do lists, of self.